God always has a way of amazing me. Always- especially this summer. The end of school/start of summer made me very uneasy just because I knew that I was no longer going to be around my friends and BCM family for a couple of months. Everyone goes their separate ways- family time, vacation, mission trips- everyone is on their own for a bit. That is what made me the most nervous. I would no longer have Primetime every Tuesday for fellowship and worship with some really awesome people. The sHebrews bible study was officially over. No more craziness at Sonic with our favorite server that always seems to be working when we go.
It was just me. How could I stay in the word by myself? How could I serve without the BCM being open? How am I going to survive this summer? Just me. Then God reminded me. I am not by myself- I never am. While God wants us to have friends, accountability partners and people we can just walk through life with, we often find ourselves relying on those relationships more than our relationship with God, and maybe we even rely too much on those people to further our relationship with Christ. I know that is how I have been the past few months. I thought without those people there by my side 24/7, I was going to lose some of my faith, trust, and love for God. Little did I know, that is when God does some of the most miraculous work.
Going home, I was really determined to actually dig into the word. It was so cool, because my parents and I actually talked about what God was doing in our lives and how we were struggling. It made it easier to dig in during my quiet times, because I wanted to encourage my family and help in any way that I could. Coming back to Statesboro was more difficult. There was absolutely no one. I was living alone with my crazy cat, and I had no motivation whatsoever. I was lazy… physically and spiritually. God knew it, of course. And that is when He laid it on my roommates heart to text and check up on me. Praise. If you don’t have anyone in your life that will ask you the hard questions, I pray that God will put that person (or those people) in your life sometime soon. Because as much as we dread to answer the hard questions, or even think about them, they need to be asked and addressed. Needless to say, I told her the truth and she encouraged me in every way that she could. Perfect timing on Gods part, as always.
The next day, I went to Daily Grind (what’s new?) to talk to and listen to God. I had no idea where to start, so I sat for a while. Then I looked down at the front of my bible which reads, “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him.” Romans 15:13. BOOM. Amazed. I am signed up to receive random devotion texts sometimes, and not even an hour later after God shoved Romans 15:13 in my face, He slapped me in face with “Jesus was intentional to rest FROM ministry to enjoy fellowship with the Father. Be disciplined in your rest, so that you will be effective FOR ministry.” SO needed that. I was so worried about not having people to keep me accountable and God said, “yo. I gotchyu cuh.” Well, I am pretty positive God doesn’t talk like that, but thats who I am so. bye. Anyways, God knew exactly what I needed to hear exactly when I needed to hear it. There is nothing wrong with resting- it’s where you find your rest that is important. Something I am guilty of (on many occasions) is staying in bed all day watching Netflix. It seems like a great idea and a way to just relax, but really… if you are not spending time in the truth, there is absolutely no way that you can be as relaxed and rested as you need to be in order to bring glory to His name. It’s easier said than done, I know. But the hard times tend to seem even more difficult when the Word and your relationship with Christ isn’t top priority.
I know that being far from friends and accountability partners can be extremely difficult. Its easy to think that you are all alone, that you’re going to “get behind” on your time with God. Don’t let it happen. You need this time with just you & God. I definitely did. Now when all of my friends and fellow council members get back to Statesboro, I will not have to rely on them for my relationship with God. I will know how to do it on my own. With that being said, I know that I can’t do it completely on my own. God has placed people in my life to pour into me, encourage me, love me, and walk with me. Thats how He made us- relational.
I pray that everyone will run after God with everything they have this summer. When everyone is back together in August, relationships/sisterhoods/brotherhoods will be stronger because of the deepened relationships with Christ. That is super encouraging to me. This was a lot to read, so I am sorry. Cant wait to see everyone back in August! It’ll be worth the Waite 😉